Every Tuesday morning at 10, about 15 to 18 of us, gather at the church building for our Tuesday morning Bible class (no, it is not a Ladies’ Bible class). The title of the class is “Wallowing in the Psalms”, and it may not be like any Bible class you have ever attended. You see, we are not studying for affirmation (prove what we already believe), or even information (the who, how, when, why and what of the text); but we are studying for “formation”. We want to learn more about God, improve our relationship with Him, and learn to praise Him more — and our reading and discussion, move along those lines. I heard one speaker say (talking about this kind of study) allow the Scripture to “wash” over you, and immerse you in God’s words. One of the ladies in the class told me that she didn’t think she was going to like the class, but she has — and that it has been really good for her.
As you might imagine, King David has been mentioned a time or two, seeing as how he wrote so many of the psalms. David has always been a little bit of enigma for us. One lady remarked in one of the latest classes, that she didn’t think she “liked” David in that chapter. I think that part of our problem with David, is that we have trouble reconciling the information that we have. We are told that David was “a man after God’s own heart” (I Samuel 13:14; Acts 13:22), and yet we know of some of his horrific sins (II Samuel 11). Most of us have struggled with all of that in our study of Scripture.
Then you read a passage, like the one from my reading this morning:
“The Lord rewarded me for doing right;
he restored me because of my innocence.
For I have kept the ways of the Lord;
I have not turned away from my God to follow evil.
I have followed all his regulations;
I have never abandoned his decrees.
I am blameless before God;
I have kept myself from sin.
The Lord rewarded me for doing right.
He has seen my innocence.”
(Psalm 18:20-24, NLT)
????????? How in the world can the David that I read about, even begin to write something like that? It almost offends me, how about you? I know my sin, and while they may not be the same sins: I would not begin to talk about myself that way. Would you?
Then look at what he says in the next chapter:
“How can I know all the sins lurking in my heart?
Cleanse me from all these hidden faults.
Keep your servant from deliberate sins!
Don’t let them control me.
Then I will be free of guilt
and innocent of great sin.”
(Psalm 19:12-13, NLT)
Could it be that David was a “man after God’s heart”, because he was always “seeking” God and His presence; and every time he fell, he got up and started that pursuit again. Could it be, that even with the blood of Jesus, I don’t understand “cleanse”, “free from guilt”, and “innocent” as well as David did? Could it be that I am still thinking that God has “perfect” expectations for me, and that I can’t forgive myself for the wrong that I do? Could it be that I am not “seeking” God, that I know that He is not my priority?
What do you think?